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MEDEVAC here I come.
Maybe that’s my problem. What I want out of a relationship is so foreign, so unreasonable, that it is no wonder I am constantly disappointed in men. It’s just that I really do secretly want that romance. That romance to end all romances. I really do want that man that will come down from the clouds and sweep me off my feet.
But the irony is that I KNOW it’s not going to happen. Because that’s not real life. Real life isn’t some glorious slow-motion moment were hair flips and a smile is flashed. Real life doesn’t involve love that is anything more than convenient.
But I want it. I want the man on the horse or at the dinner party to notice me above all others. I want the hand kissed. I want a loss for words. I want someone to compare me to a sunset. And I want the sunset to lose.
I live in an age of technology and internet and closeness to my fellow human being that has never before been possible. But at the same time, I live in an age where people are so disconnected from each other that we miss out on the human experience. Everyone is so worried about getting hurt that we don’t try. When people are so unused to a friendly gesture that it can be misinterpreted just as easily as not, there may be a problem with us.
How hard is it to buy someone flowers? Are we really that jaded as a generation that even the simple things are seen as trite? How hard is it to hold open a door? Are we really that bitter with ourselves that this can’t be accomplished? I guess the one that I can’t wrap my mind around is a noticeable lack of grace when approaching a woman that a man is interested in. “Aye girl. You got a man?” How is that supposed to make me feel special? How is that supposed to warm my heart to you?
“You are the best of my life. You make me happy in whom I am. I am better for knowing you. I look at you and there is no sunrise, no sunset, no great vista that compares to your smile. I see you and suddenly the world slows, if just for an instant. I want you. I only want you. And if you feel like you could stand beside me, I would gladly make you my first priority for the rest of my life.”
But then again, maybe this is an unreasonable request, for men to appreciate women.